i never thought
i never thought i would become a physco girlfriend... always thought that i would be calm and understanding..but i proved myself wrong when i blow up at my boyfriend for things out of his control.. is it love? or is it paranoia?
my parents are
my parents are too demanding and i struggle too much and stress way too much and worry too much.... i am so undecisive and have problems in school
I act as
I act as thought I'm a very social person. I talk alot, I guess I have people skills and I come off as optimistic and carefree. In reality I'm a very cynical, anti-social person who rarely wants to talk to people. My confession is, I hate people.
I'm lying to
I'm lying to the world. I walk around with this disguise i put on my face. The world see's me cheerful, happy, always laughing but inside i'm slowly decaying. My imperfection's are causing my selfesteem to descend. I feel as if i will never understand love or know the true meaning of friendship. I barricade myself away from everyone and anyone. Slowly becoming a hermitt. This wall used as a defense mechanism i have built over the years has grown exponentially. I stand here emotionless due to the many years of putting off every emotion into a storage inside my mind until finally it's exploding. Tear's sees to exist. Love is an illusion to me. While growing up, love was never in my life. Never feeling love from my family nor friends. My father come's across to me as a stranger. Never been the father figure i needed. I hate him for that. Lack of love has affected the way i perceive life. Relationship's never evolve. Im afraid to love.
Afraid to be hurt. Any type of relationship ive been in, end's shortly after it begin's. Never allowing anyone to penetrate the great wall that i've built. Im afraid that wall has grown to such a sized that no one can ever penetrate. So today, i confess.... im depressed....
i think parents
i think parents try to control their kids too much. they just need to tdeal with their own problems and not take it out on their kids. like my girlfriends parents i think they mess her up by accusing her of everything in the world. my confession is that love will not last forever if both sides don't make it work.
I feel like
I feel like no one accepts me for who I am. I want to die
i got though
i got though life by cheating and now im screwed cuz i dont know a damn thing
I need to
I need to get my priorities straight. I need to start studying more. I am falling way too behind!
i am lonely.
i am lonely.
I always say
I always say I will stop myself from temptations and pray every time a temptation comes up, but I tend to always forget and give into the temptations.
I was caught
I was caught cheating on a math test once. Oops.
i'm 20 years
i'm 20 years old. i made out with my TA (teaching assistant) who is 31 years old.
Havent been doin
Havent been doin qt's as much as i should be. Also I should get more involved at church.
this one time
this one time in grade school most of my friends got in trouble for throwing grass clumps but I didn't even though I had partaken in the offense and I never did confess to it letting my friends take the brunt of the punishment of which I received none.
ive always thought
ive always thought of myself as a good friend but i find myself being annoyed by friends easily. I find little things become annoying because i feel the friends i have are not fully appreciating my friendship or not willing to help me in my time of need. Sometimes i juss want to yell
One thing that
One thing that really pisses me off is when people try to teach me something that I already know. I get angry and very bitter~ and then I feel all bad... Pride seems to always get in the way of good times to relearn something.
i haven't gone
i haven't gone to church since senior year in HS, and i haven't felt a need to. now i feel empty inside.
I've been going
I've been going to church all my life, as far back as I can remember. This is my last year in college and now I've been to church like twice in 2 months. I don't know why I'm not going anymore. It's not that I don't believe in God anymore but rather that I don't feel like I have a good church I can go to...