My brother was in a motorcyle accident last June. I was the last person to see him before it happened.
The last words he ever heard were "I hope you die".
And he did.
I will never, ever stop feeling guilty.
I've liked the same guy for two years. We're good friends. We do a lot of business together. When we met we we're both in relationships, but now we're both single. We spend a lot of time together, but nothing romantic ever happens. I think its obvious that I like him. Everyone else sees it. Part of me thinks he likes me too. I think we're both so intimidated by each other that we think we don't have a chance. Neither one of us is the type to be rejected. I like him so much. My last relationship ended in part because I could never shut up about him. I look forward to seeing him and his phone calls. I'm like a little girl. I giggle and blush and get butterflies. I love it. I love this feeling. I guess risking losing the pleasure of his company just to bear my soul isn't what I want to do. I'd rather sit here and admire him from afar then never admire him at all. I look at it this way, whatever is meant to be will happen.
I have come to realize that there are alot of fake people out there. The person who is your best friend all through middle school, won't sit next to you in high school. The person who held your hair back when you were drunk and drove you home, won't be there when you're legal to drink. People change. You have to stay true to who you are and what you believe. Don't make exceptions. Anyone who is worthy of your friendship would never do anything to jeopardize it. Life is too short to have shady people around you. Surround yourself with good people who love you and support you. You have one life to live, make it the best one ever.
When I was little, my mom used to spend a lot of money on expensive items from department stores, particularly shoes. But she'd be afraid of showing my dad her credit card bills, so in order to pay them off, she'd return a vast majority of what she'd gotten. She'd be too ashamed to return five or six pairs of shoes at a time, though, so she'd send me or one of my siblings to do it. Even at a young age, I knew what was going on and it embarressed me. I know that she still does the same thing to my younger half-brother. Well, I inherited my mother's shopping addiction. But instead of returning anything that I don't need and facing the shame of dealing with judgemental salespeople, I keep all of it. So now I have tons of clothes, but if I don't watch out, I'll go broke very quickly.
If one of my friends piss me off i will take something that is worth a good amount of money and smash it. I broke a friends cell phone 2 weeks ago for making me look like and ass at a party. He never found out what happened to it and spent almost $400 on a new phone.
drinking by myself
I never have enough free time to go hang out with friends and drink. When i do have the free time there busy. I drink by myself until i cant even walk. I do at least 2 times a week. It sucks so bad, but i have nothing else to do. The gf works so much that we never get to see each other so i turn to drinking.
I'm messed up right now
-I'm almost suicidal
-I hate who I am right now
-I'm 20, in love with a 14 year old. I'll never tell her because I want her to be happy. Can't help my perfect girl was born a few years after me.
-I have no one to talk to at all. None of my friends want to hear what I have to say.
I'm Very Sorry
When I was a kid...we had a servant, who happened to have a child, and he was an orphan, his father was dead....I used to bully him, and torture him...Sometimes I want to cry
about these sort of things I did...I used to beat on my younger sister too, and maids....I hate myself sometimes.
living a lie
im in a relationship with the guy who has been my best friend for the last 2 years - he is everything any girl could want... but late at night all i think about is the one that broke my heart... deep down i know he is my one
I messed up
Ive been married for 7 years.My husband just found out Ive been having a affair with his best mate. The bad thing is I'm actually also having an affair with a man in Texas who Ive fallen in love with.If the guy from Texas finds out about me sleeping with my hubby's best mate I risk losing him. My life sucks,and It's all my own fault
Days of our lives
I'm having a real "days of our lives" kinda life going on lately. I went from being engaged, to single, to a girlfriend. The boyfriend's "best" friend decides to take the opportunity to tell me that he is basically falling in love with me and that he will wait for me as long as it takes. He then decides its important to be around me as much as possible. I have some feelings for him, but not enough to destroy the 5 year relationship i have with my boyfriend. I don't know what to do. I'm tired of being involved in drama and i didn't bring this on myself. I can't stop thinking about this guy and i know its wrong but i can't get him out of my head. on paper, he's a total loser. he's got two kids, getting divorced from one of my old "best friends" and i can't help but think he's insane. Maybe I'm insane. I don't know anymore.
Getting kicked out of College
I got kicked out of a really nice college a month ago, and have been depressed every since. Even though my dismissal is only for a year, it still seems very long. I started a job somewhere mainly because I don't want to be lonely since I'm at home most of the time.
In order to get back next year, I'd have to have B or bettere grades in all the classes I'm currently taking at a community college, life sucks so much.
I dream about my friends over back at the university, how much fun we had, how great life was back then, last year as a freshman living in the dorms. Now, I'm a castaway, they don't even remember me anymore.
I have a midterm tomorrow and I'm stressing out.
im love her so much
I cant stop thinking about my gf. When shes not around i feel so bored and dead. Shes everything to me and i could not live without her. I am so afraid of losing her. I would do anything for her.
oops. i fell in love again. with the wrong guy. again.
love is a rollercoaster
i love my girlfriend of five years, but i get extremely angry whenever i'm around her. i go from loving her to not wanting be around her almost immediately. its all i can think about and its been the case for 3 months.
I have no idea what i want. I don't know what i want to do with my life, i don't know where i want to go, i'm so undecided. Most of all, i can't figure out what i want in a guy. I've had two boyfriends in my entire life. One lasted a week, the other lasted a month, both were ended by me. I like the chase but once i have them where i want them, i get scared (of what? i really don't know) I'm scared to be cared about, i don't take affection very well. A few months ago i dated someone (the one that lasted for a month) and i expected things to really work. He cheated on me with one of my best friends (they just made out, but at my age that is DEFINITELY considered cheating, especially within the first week of going out) I forgave them both but things just became weird so after another few weeks, i broke it off. We are now best friends. I'm closer to him than i am with some of my best friends that are girls. We've been more flirty
than usual with each other lately and i can tell that another relationship will probably start. I care about him soo so much, there is no one else i would rather be with. But i'm scared of getting hurt, i'm scared of lovving all together. We've both changed a ton in the past few months so part of me thinks that this time will be different. Actually i know this time will be different. but do i go for it and find out with the
I want to marry her
I am in a relationship with an amazing woman. She encourages me to grow and learn from our experiences together. She is my best friend and my biggest supporter and fan. She's sexy and beautiful in every possible way.
My confession is this: She never wants to get married or let things get to that point. If I get too close she pushes me away for a time. I've learned to adjust and step back to give her that space.
I want to marry her. I want to enjoy the rest of my life doing everything we're doing now as husband and wife. I don't want to stifle her independence, nor do I want her to stifle mine. But I do want to be domesticated and belong to only her.
I think I've managed to convince her that I am not interested in marriage anymore, and that I don't want us to live together.
Recently, she stated that sometimes she finds herself wanting all of those things with me, but she feels it would be her giving herself away and being too codependent.
But silently, I am sad. I don't want to be without her, but I don't want her to feel that I'm being pushy.
his best friend
I think I'm falling in love with my husband's best friend. He's so depressed all the time and so sad, and my husband leaves me feeling so lonely. So I spend a lot of time with him instead of my husband, and we laugh together and sometimes border on flirting, but he's too good of a guy to ever make a move. It makes me really sad... all I really want to do is kiss him. It makes it twice as hard that we're sharing an apartment with him right now to save money. I see him morning and night, and I can't even touch his hand.