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Mom, if you only knew how much I truly hate you...
I can no longer tolerate my mother. She is a horrid women, rotten to the core from her own cynical nature. She also throws back everything someone says to her in anger, making each battle with her a nightmare.
In response to this, I have created a bedtime ritual. Every night before I fall asleep, I picture her and me in a room together. I yell at her and say all the things I so desperately wish I could say to her in reality. I scream how I can't stand how she treats me like her slave, how she completely destroys all positive situations with her words, and that I can no longer feel any kind of compassion toward her.
I always fall asleep with a smile on my face.
my boyfriend seems to show more love for other girls than me. It annoys me so much, i wish i could do something. There's always something wrong with the lives of these girls. I know them personally myself, so i know they have these problems. But i feel left out alot, i feel unloved. Then i go throught the guilt phase, i feel like im being selfish, after all these girls do really need help right? What should I do?
Love her man
I am in love with my friend's man. He's handsome and I"m beautiful and we look amazing together. She's not beautiful like me. He wants me so bad I can feel it because I also want him. He is my man in my heart and soul. I'm planning for the first time to take another woman's man. I don't want to hurt her but I need this man with me, in my life, in my bed. I feel him. I hurt. I ache. I'm in love.
I tell her everything she is not only my girlfriend but also my best friend and I can't tell her that I just bought her an engagement ring and plan on purposing during our vacation.............
i have hated when i shouldnt have. i have harrassed girls for no reason. i need to stop this nonsense and move on. ugh
I Could Make Him Happy
I want you, Lee, and I love you. I am so overwhelmed by the passion I feel for you. I know that I could give you what you need and make you happy. When you are ready to be loved and spoiled like no other, you know where to find me.
in love with brothers wife
I am total in love with my brothers wife, he has been with her for 20yrs, so i have known her just as long, and have fancied her since then.
I would love to be with her all the time, however just one night of passion with her would be a dream come true.
I'm in love with a coworker
I've known and worked with J for about 1-1/2 years. We've been friends, spent time socially with one another. She even bought me a lap dance at a strip club once (she went along on the theory that we'd draw more attention with a girl with us than alone, and she was right.) Simply put, I've fallen in love with her. I've seen both her good side and her bad side, but everything seems better when she's around. We have similar views, similar upbringings, and have fun when we are together. She is currently unattached, although there is a (much younger) guy she's been hanging out with and seems to like, and it's pretty clear that she wants a relationship with this guy. We work at a small company, so there's no way a relationship between us could happen. Plus, I'm sure she's not interested, which makes me kick myself in the ass for allowing myself to feel anything for someone I know doesn't reciprocate. I'm old
enough to know better.
My general chemistry class and chem lab make me want to kill myself for the mere fact of knowing that through my own laziness, I will never make it in the real world due to its unrealistic expectations. It makes me want to not be with any woman knowing that I would only expand into the world my stupidity.
I have a confession
I have a crush on my sister in laws boyfriend and cant stop thinking about him or dreaming about him.
My ex-boyfriend doesn't know that I have the password to his myspace, and I have been secretly checking it every day. He has no idea! I just decided that no, I do not feel bad about this because the reason we broke up is he cheated on me!
I have been so broke lately and scared to ask my parents for money because they just gave me 200$ which I immediately spent so I could go to a music festival and out drinking. SO I've basically been starving myself, like all I had to eat today was half a packet of stale banana chips and 20 Parliament Light cigarettes (would rather smoke than eat, if forced to choose). The good news is, I've managed to starve myself down to a size 00!! I just measured my waist and it is 23 inches!!
The bad news is that it actually looks terrible :(
I hope my student loan check arrives soon.
No one cares
I have been cutting myself since I can remember, and never hidden it. Why won't people help me? Are they just ignoring me? Does no one care?
My boyfriend is a tyrant 100%! The definition as published by American Psychological Association (APA) states a tyrant is a sovereign or other ruler who uses power oppressively or unjustly. He is without a doubt UNJUST and he even though he believes he is, he is NOT my ruler. He seems to go about his business thinking otherwise but I will NOT be ruled by anyone, especially him. He has the most WHACKED sense of right & wrong and the meaning of FAIR!
I am trying to see my way out of this without injury for he is physically much larger in size than me. Why? Well he just informed me that if he saw a popular game site that I subscribe to (i pay a monthly fee for it but i'm not allowed to play it?!) on my computer screen, he would destroy my computer! Which btw I just put back together after he completely trashed my room two days ago. He put a hammer through my dead mother's trunk, broke a stack of dishes, etc.
I am not a violent person and this degree of fighting left me shaking like a leaf. I became posessed during the fight and threw a bong at his head which I am happy to say left a lump and a mark. In the end we both found that part humorous.
I just have to be smart and figure out a way to get him out of my space and keep me bruise free. Wish me luck...
I hate myself for loving you. No matter how many times i try not to, i always end up looking for you in a crowd. The last time i truly felt happy was with you, and that still hasn't changed. I've realized the more i want something the less chance i have of getting it, but still i want to be able to with you everyday. I'm sorry
i have everything and i want more
my boyfriend is the best guy in the world. if i were a bit older (im 19) i would probably marry him. he's 21 and has everything going for him. problem is we never see each other. im the type of person that has to have attention all the time. so because i don't get enough protection from him i have to go out and get attention from some other guy. last nite i went out with a guy that i knowingly had a crush on. we made out....nothing more and i feel like poo. i love my boyfriend with all my heart and this isnt the first time i've cheated on him. i do love him with all my heart but breaking up isnt right for me. cause all i want is to see him more and if we break up i'll never see him. i just want him..and i can't have that at the moment. with school and work and everything..we just dont actually have the time. so it's either i sit here and cry all the time or i just try to control myself and just go to school and work.
..i just dont know what to do....
I love them
i keep meeting and falling for men i cant have. it is completely innocent- for example a chance meeting when i was staying at my sisters boyfriends house, i met his bandmate, and we ended up chatting till after 7am the next day. we enjoyed each others company so much, and we kissed before we left each other. But of course now i am 300 miles away again, and cant stop thinking about him.
a few months earlier, a similar thing happening meeting a boy at a folk music festival, we spent the weekend together, but the only thing we have now is each others mobile numbers. we also like 400 miles apart.
i cannto find this with anyone i know or lives near me. i just keep getting hurt over and over again. whats wrong with me.
I love my sister-in-law
This is a sad story. I'm 35 now. Since the age of 18 I am in love with a girl who is 4 years youger than me. She was 14 then, she is 31 now. At 18 I started to date with her older sister, who is my age. I love and respect and enjoy my marriage, we have good life and three wonderful kids, but what can I do... For all these years I was and still am in love with her sister.
I never tried to approach her for the fear of rejection that might have been natural first due to the age difference at the time (18 & 14), and now due to the fact that I'm married to her sister. Even if she was interested in me (and I don't know whether she is or was at all) she he couldn't ruin her sister's life for her own benefit.
Next year my sister in law is getting married. I would say it is a bit late for her at her age of 31 (she is very good looking), and when I'm happy for her, I feel sad - it means that she's gone for me forever. Not that I had any intention to divorce my wife and ruin my family. It is just sad.
I ask myself whether I married her sister to remain close to her, or because she resembles her, or because I truly loved her. I do not know the answer.
The thing is that that true sence of love, that gentle caring emotion that you feel for your kids (actually for your favourite kid...) that I feel for my sister in law has never left me.
From time to time I ask myself should I have been more corageous with my life, and try to win my true love's heart. But I never was in a position to even try. Since she was 14 I was her sister's boyfriend, and then husband.
I don't know what she feels, and I don't know whether I will do something about it. Maybe I lost my ultimate happiness in this life by not daring.
But she is getting married in a couple of months, to a guy who in all respects is lesser than me - shorter, poorer, less good looking, he really is.
And I am a bit sad.
Feel free with the comments, I couldn't dare to tell to to enyone else...