I'm a bad person
I've been with my guy for 3 years now, and most of the time, all I do is fantasize about other men. Exes, his friends, random bar guys, celebs - you name it. I guess I just wonder if that's normal...or if maybe I'm too young to get married. The problem is, I love him more than anything in the world. He is the best person for me, and I know that, I just wish I could stop thinking about other guys. It makes me feel so bad. But I haven't ever and wouldn't ever cheat on him. Am I a bad person?
i want to get a mohawk soon but i'm afraid i'll get fired
I used to fake as people
Well.. one day i used my friends picture as a joke i talked to him and he was like "what the heck" at first it was funny but then i got addicted taking other peoples pictures and pretending to be them i even used one in a game and got cought i quit the minute they found out it wasnt me and i vow to this day to never do it again
I Stole My Friends Game
When i was in the 6th grade my friend had lent me a game after a couple of weeks i was supposed to be moving but i didn't tell him.. lol i wanted it so in 2 days i ended moving keeping the games.. after a while i felt horrible about it and if someone did it to me i'd be wanting to fight 'em so if your reading this and you know who you are im really really sorry
I am spun out on Ritalin. It helped me study at first but now it makes my heart feel all messed up. I can't stop taking it without staying in bed all day. Trying to learn advanced mathematics on legal speed has made me lose my mind. I'm broke. I have a great idea but I can't summon the will power to carry it out. I am so confused about everything. I have nothing to show for the last six years. What happened to me?
i don't know why.
i still love my ex boyfriend. we broke up because he was suicidal and depressed and i told his parents. at first he was a grateful, but now is spreading lies about me and telling me he hates me. i just want him to be happy and healthy, even though it's tearing me apart.
I love you
i told my bf he was the first person i ever said i love you to, but its not true. i got caught up and a lame internet thing and i felt guilty for not liking the guy as much and i told him i loved him and convinced myself i liked him more than i did. I look at it as my one do over. That im allowed to make that one mistake, so it didn't really count
my whole life was a struggle with my appearance, i always thought i was ugly, when i was about 9 a bully type person called me ugly. Through out all this ppl would say i was beautiful, or tell my mom. When i started going online about 3 years ago and put up pictures on myspace, i got bombarded with compliments. PPl think i model, i had many men like/love/ me jut form what they saw. I broke some hearts. I hate that boy, because in all the beautifuls, there is still that one ugly that ruins it all. I wished awful things on him, he is a loser, does drugs and whatnot, part of me hopes he gets busted and goes to jail, or that he has a stroke and is damaged for life.
I've been in love with this guy for four years and even though he has moved on and i'm living good everyday i think about him. i pray for him more than i pray for myself. I know that he's happy but it doesn't make me happy because he's not happy with me he's with someone else. I love him so much, i'll give anything for the love and affection he shows her even though she doesn't deserve it. We haven't talk in like two years but i know him because he's one of my best friend's brother, but every time it's his birthday i call and say Happy birthday, this year i called and he just asked who is this and it killed me. i wake up in the middle of the night and just think about him. it's so bad now that i'm asking people how to fall out off love with somebody because it's killing me slowly. I don't want to cry anymore because i'm not with him, some tell me how to fall out of love...
I wish I could hate you
I wish I could hate you for what you did to me. I wish I could hate you others later on for doing the same thing. But I cannot. For you have helped me to find out who I really was - and you helped me to find out who really wanted to still hang out.
I cannot hate you despite the fact you appear to still be happy. I cannot wish you ill because I would like to think you no longer wish me ill.
And I cannot hate you others because you apologized, and we talked and it was all fine. I don't think you think it is fine at all; and I could hate you for pretending but I am willing to give you the benefit of the doubt for now.
I wish I could hate you but I cannot...because I am afraid that you hate me already.
I want to feel the guilt. My fantasies are about guilt producing things, the more vile the better. I can't make it stop. The shame of my actions is the payoff. It is one of the most powerful feelings that I experience. It shoots through my body and tells me I am alive.
I Want to Leave
I love a boy with all my heart... and sometimes he says he loves me (if I ask he'll say 'yea') or acts like it, but he'll never say the words. I feel like he's just playing with me. He always insults me.
I want to move on and get out of this semi-relationship, where I have all the commitment and responsibility but he has none.
But I can't, because I love him, and I promised.
I've broken a promise before, and I can't do it again.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so scared sometimes for myself. He's dragging me down.
He always says I can leave, but he says it in such a way that threatens me if I do...
my best friend
My confession is that i'm jealous of my best friend, she everything........for example, guys think i'm hot but think she's hotter and she ends up with them. And it hurts because when i like a guy, he's so strung up on her that he doesn't see that she doesn't want him and i would treat him right. She gets all the attention from guys. I love the way i look, i love myself and i think i'm really hot and smexy (LOL) but everytime i'm around her i loose my confidence and i just let her have her way. The thing is right now in my country, red girls are in and black girls are out (no joke i'm serious...it's bad) and i'm just hating this phase. I love her like a sister and she is such a good friend but i can't take it anymore. another example, last year i join facebook, i have 200 hundred friends from that like 135 are boys, i introduced her two months ago and she has 356 friends and 231 are guys and i don't know why it's bothering me...
.....i hate felling like this but the truth is ....I AM JEALOUS
OF MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!
I don't think about it
The wars we are fighting are not on my mind. Seriously everybody volunteered to go. I wish them the best but to be honest I don't care. I don't believe they are fighting for my freedom because we never had it at stake in the first place. I do empathize with the dead and dying. However really I'm watching March Madness with friends and my son is safe here. To be honest I don't have any family members in the military right now.
Somebody gets to do it and they all chose in. So like many Americans were are enjoying life while "Rome/Iraq" burns. I have no connection to this at all. I don't even watch the news because we are always on road trips and just enjoying life. I said it and now it is out. I could care less what political party wins, when they pull out of Iraq or any other country. Life is happening and that is just a tiny speck of what is going on in this universe. People who send their son's or daughters to war get to deal with the reality....someone is going to die....500,000 people die a day. It's life.
I let people think I like being 'Different', when actually I would give anything just to fit in. I'm 18, and I still don't understand.
I have lived a very selfish life.
I often fantasize that I will be pulling out of the office parking lot on a Friday afternoon with Iron Maiden blasting for all to hear, and at the stoplight I will look over to the next car, and there will be a girl driving it, no passengers with her and single like me, and she will hear the music, and throw the horns, and I'll do the same, and we will meet later and exchange numbers, and start a relationship. But that hasn't happened yet. Usually when I tell a girl I love Heavy Metal, I get an eyeroll or "Um, okay, that's nice".
My body is disgusting. I hate it with a passion. I feel like i royally messed it up. I have bumps on my arm, which i just recently learned is an untreatable skin condition. i am fat. i gained 20 lbs while in college and gained it so fast that now i have stretch marks all over my stomach. if i were to ever lose the weight, i will still never be happy with the way i look because of those damn stretch marks. it is disgusting. i want a new body. i want to start over.