hard to say hello
I keep running into M in my community. I have yet to look at him in the eyes, smile and say hello. It's the one thing I want to do more than anything and I keep stalling when our paths cross. I feel like such a knob.
she's at it again
my best friend is goin to take him from me. i love him like you would never know and he's just goin to fall for her and i'll be left out. i can't tell her not to talk to him and i can't tell him not to talk to her...it's unfair....... i don't think he likes me anymore as the time progresses....she's taking him from me.
I enjoy littering
I never do it around anyone and actually throw everything in the proper bins unless I am driving down the road alone. When I am alone on a stretch of road I HAVE to litter. I don't understand it but it's something I have to do. I always feel bad after.
I have recently formed an obsession with finding as many words that start in "e" and end in "ic" I feel as if people around me are bored about hearing that I have found yet another couple words... I just can't stop! after 331 words I feel like I need still more and more... HELP!
My high school sweetheart
After breaking up with my first girlfriend from high school five years ago and seeing other women, I'm still secretly obsessed about her. I still keep in touch with her as friends, but I always check if she's online and look at her blog and her social network profile almost every day. I also still think about her even when I'm seeing others.
From what I understand, she's been in and out of love as well, still searching for her Mr. Perfect. Although deep inside I want her to come back to me, I can never gather the courage to ask her, always saying to myself 'I have to move on' while my heart quietly weeps.
im in love with this guy ive been dating over the internet like really IN LOVE, except when he first met me i was lying about alot of things ALOT. i want to tell him the truth. but i love him so much i hate the thought of not being with him. this is the guy i want to marry. if he had been lying to me like this i would still want him but i dont know if he feels the same
never been kissed
im 16... and ive never been kissed
my mother gets me so mad sometimes, that i does feel like slapping her down everytime she open her mouth.(she must feel the same about me). she does mess up everything that i have to do.....i goin an fail exams if i doh get some kinda revelation because of her. she just cah get ah answer an take it, she always have to inquire and get this an that and talk to this one an that one. she treats me like i'm 16 when i'm 18. i can't stand her behaviour sometimes. i really not talking to her for this whole two months that i have examinations. she just pissing me off rel bad and thing, this menopause thing is a real pain. sometimes i wish i could just shut her the hell up.
I'm a racist
I don't know why, I always have been sort of. It's not like I can't handle being around black people, I just always think they don't deserve what I do.
I always feel like I'm more civilized and of a much higher class, just because I'm white and they're black.
I just don't think black people deserve what I deserve. It's not a conscious thing, it's just how I am.
I knew, but why did it hurt so bad when I found out?
I was in love with a girl and partially still am. I knew she didn't like me. But when she told me I was depressed for weeks and last night I had a dream about her going out with one of my friends and I am really depressed now. The dream is starting to become a reality. I'm not suicidal, but I certainly can cry.
Today I accidentally broke a window playing soccer at my elementary school and now i am scared that the police will come and track me down and I will get in big trouble, hopefully not though. I am reallly nervous
Everything and everyone around me tends to say that you love one person at a time. I am in love with more than one person. Which brings about two issues. I have always been very adverse to being with men that have a girlfriend or wife. In fact, the thought of it would make me angry, and still does. I recognize that it's wrong considering two people made that commitment to each other and if I were to be in a relationship with the man knowing that he was attached, I'd be taking part in something that is horrible. Something that I wouldn't want to have happen to me if I were the woman attached to the man. Yet in the case of the men I love, I would be with them regardless. One of them is not attached. The other, in fact, is. He and I no longer live in the same town due to various complications and he is now back with his ex. I know that he is back with his ex, and he knows that I know this. But given the chance, both of us wouldn't be
able to resist each other. We're even planning to
have a weekend get away to enjoy each other. Then he will return home. I don't feel bad about it because I love him. Then again if I love someone so strongly to the point that I will knowingly take part in them cheating, how is it that I have another love as well? Love is a confusing thing.
We had a rocky friendship. Off and on again. Years without speaking to each other. I want so much to find you and just tell you how much I always loved you. I think I will always love you because this hurt of being without you has never gone away. I tried to tell you once but I don't think you really understood and it's my fault because I've always been with someone else and too scared of being alone to leave and too scared of you rejecting me to come out and tell you straight out. No one can replace you. I've tried. No one can compare.. I close my eyes and I can still see your face. I remember everything you said to me and the facial expressions you used. You live now in my memories only. If I had any artistic talent I would paint you just so I could see your blue eyes every day. You were the best friend I ever had and I wish I could take back all the horrible things I said to you over the years. I just got so frustrated because I've
always felt this way about you but I just couldn't
bring myself to say it, so I took it out on you and pushed you away. Time after time. Our last fight was about a cat. If you see this. Please find me. I love you.
Not sure if its forever
I was married before, and it lasted 7 years. 7 hellish years. When I finally got over being heartbroken, I vowed NEVER again. 7 years later I have a son and in a relationship same as a marriage. I dont cheat, but sometimes I wonder if the conditions are right if I would. Life is boring, but at least theres no violence like my first marriage. I prob sound like a woman, but Im a guy!
i love my cousin
I have strong feelings for my first cousin. Can't stop thinking about him today although I know I'm behaving like a schoolgirl. I have a boyfriend who's lovely but I cannot stop thinking about my cousin. We have been involved romantically in the past. He was in love with me once but we just couldn't get it off the ground then. There's huge chemistry there. Others notice it, even when they've no idea we used to date. I'm seeing him tomorrow, just as friends. He is not my ideal life partner or anything but he does something to me. I'm listening to a song over and over right now that makes me think of him. Silly girl... I have a lovely boyfriend. Life is weird.
No body understands
It all starts when I hear stories about an innocent girl, afterwards I become obessed, because I really wanna date somebody who is still innocent and pure, who would give me the old love type with nothing in return, but as I always say! dreams are for rookies....It was going ok! I simply walked the walk, and simply talked the talk, all her looks, and way and stickin around with my friends made me feel comfortable a little, but I felt something is missing, days after, she was so different! she was just cold, but its my fault, when I think that I love somebody I don't intend to play mind games with her, I was honest and all my actions had been saying to her that she's different to me, and this is where I got stiffed...I guess my type weren't meant to find true love...but I confess I want dearly to find true love, and I guess I could've loved this girl...T13
I spent the rent money
I did it again. I blew the rent money at a casino. I don't know why. I thought I was doing good at keeping my habit at bay, but no. I don't know how to tell my wife. I'm afraid she'll leave me.
I'm 20 and i haven't had a boyfriend yet. I feel like at this rate i am just going to be alone for the rest of my life.