I just lost...
I am a gambling addict...I have lost over 7400$ this month alone. I hate myself. I am such a loser. Why would anyone want to be like this. It is not the life at all. I am constantly cheating myself and my family. I think I would be better off dead. DO NOT GAMBLE
I'm a drunk and a liar. May God forgive me. So sorry.
You and me again
my entire day can turn based on whether or not i get a text from you. but now i'm constantly worried that you will text me when my boyfriend is around. i can't believe you and i are back in this same situation we were in 3 years ago. and i'm so glad you're still in love with me.
I used to have this best friend. One day i finally told him that i was in love with him, and surprisingly he loved me too =]. Those days were the best in my life, we would talk for hours and hours, thinking minutes had passed by. Until one day, he just stopped talking to me. I moved on, thinking he was just another jerk. Months have passed since i talked to him, but i will always love him. i Still hang on, thinking something'll happen. When my mind know nothing is going to go on. My heart doesn't accep that answer. When i see he's online, i want to tell him i love him and miss him. But i never get the courage to. I know i can't keep going on like this,and that sometime i will crack. But until then, all i can do is keep it inside. I just hope that nothing bad happens.
I can't really hope that. Seeing as he is 20 and i'm underage still. Horrible things that happen in life, an that's one of them. I also have to say that i really want to rip my moms head off. She's making me move halfway across the world, again. What the heck is she thinking, how am i suposed to settle down, and think of what i want to do in the future if she just wants to keep changing personalities.
Drowning In Memories
It's been six years and I still wake thinking of her and it haunts me, then I take her to sleep with me. I hold her in my dreams. She speaks to me. She looks at me, like she used to, like she still wants too. I don't know how to let her go. I can't shake her.
I'm still in love with you, even though we broke up so long ago. I guess you'll never feel the same way about me, but I still love you with all of my heart. You were my first love and you've always been there for me. Sometimes I want to tell you how I feel but I know you wouldn't like it. I just have to be contented with the sweet agony it is to be around you at work. I wish more than anything that you would just reach out and touch me. Your smile makes me melt on the inside, and when you say my name I always smile. I love you.
Forgive me, God. I don't treat people with as much love as I have for them. I want to forgive everybody.
I want to stop lying, cheating, and being vain. I have had enough of my own sin, and I repent and ask for God's forgiveness.
A nasty man
I hate my husband. He is the meanest, most insensitive, rude, obnoxious, nasty, man anyone can ever meet. I walk on eggshells when I am around him because I never know what will set him off. I try to avoid situations where I have to be in public with him. I have no idea how I ended up with him. I am stuck with him because I don't know how to get away from him. I must have been possessed to marry him. His parents treated him lousy and he never learned love from them. I pray every day that he gets into a car accident and dies or at least becomes comatose that I can unplug him. He's a lawyer and so am I; isn't that crazy? and I can't figure a way out. I have to make sure the two boys don't end up just like him. If you read this, please pray for that car accident...
I don't think I will ever get over my first love. I'm happily married, but whenever I come across an old letter or photo of or from my ex, it still breaks my heart. Will I ever get over him? It's been ten years by the way
Never going to happen.
My brother has this friend which I found very attractive from the first time we met which was like 5 years ago? I was always really geeky and dorky around him but I didn't know better.
Two years ago, my brother went to work abroad and invited me to visit him in the foreign country he was in. I went and his friend happened to have gone to visit him there, too.
The whole time I was geeky and dorky and slowly and subtly starting to feel things for him. The time we spent together started meaning more and more. There was almost this romantic tension when we were alone but nobody would do anything. I think my brother saw a bit of the tension so he tried to be present whenever he could.
Now this hot friend has a girlfriend who he's gone traveling a few times with and I'm pretty sure they're going to end up together for another while.
Breaks my heart a little bit but because I fell for him in such a subtle way, my mind prepared to discover that he had a good girlfriend. If only I could phone him and it not be weird...
I love a married woman that isn't my wife
I've recently reconnected with an old friend/girlfriend. We were always close and connected on a very deep level, but I was too stupid and self-centered to commit to her. We fell out of touch for a long time. I've been married for over 13 years with 2 kids and thought I was happy... until I started chatting with my friend again. She's recently married and I want so badly to break them up so she'll be with me. I've realized that I don't really love my wife anymore and never loved her on the same level as my friend. But I don't want to hurt my kids. The pain of being seperated from my friend is almost unbearable. We chat every day. I should feel guilty, but I don't. I think about my friend even when I kiss my wife and tell her I love her. I fantasize about leaving her.
I became a wiccan 6 years ago through online courses. Nobody knows. I don't pretend to be religious, but I think if people knew this they'd think I was crazy.
Got my boss back
We have a HUGE jerk of a supervisor where I used to work. She loves to humiliate her employees and is even super rude to customers. The last shift I worked with her we got in a nasty argument and I decided I was done working there.
That same day I went on the company's website and wrote a HUGE complaint about her, pretending to be a customer (because I know they don't take employee complaints seriously). A few days later my friend told me the girl had gotten in a lot of trouble because of a complaint, I knew it was mine! I don't feel a bit bad about it, she deserved it, I watched too many people take her nastyneess and never complain. I just wish she'd been fired.
I love stealing, I think I actually have a problem. When I'm alone in a room in someone's house or at work I rifle through people's belongings. I've taken really stupid things that I don't need, I think that's a real sign of a mental problem.
I worked at the same place for 5 years and took money all the time. It was just so darn easy. By the end I was taking at least 50 bucks a shift. The worst part is I really don't feel bad about it. Now I don't work there and I'm so poor all the time, I'm not used to living without the extra income. I guess it serves me right.
Mom is a burden
My dad left my mom 5 years ago when I was 20. Mom was sick at the time so I had to work while in collage and pay all the bills. I thought mom would bounce back in a year or two but she didn't at all, she didn't even seem to try.
Now her health is fine but she is totally depressed and defeated. She doesn't work, she has no money, and depends on me for everything. I love her so much and would never dream of not caring for her, but I hate that I'm 25 and burdened by this. I can't move out of the city even though I'd love to go see the world. She calls me at least once a week and totally depresses me. If I don't go visit her for a few days in a row she gets practically suicidal. And what makes it worse is my older sister doesn't do half of what I do, she''s going to get married and move soon and leave me with all the responsibility. I just wish I could be free to live my life and that mom could be a happy, productive person.
my biggest regret
I have a great guy friend who I know deep down I'm in love with. 3 years ago we did a lot of clubbing together and then one night he asked me to go home with him. I was really inexperienced at the time and in a panic I said maybe it wasn't a good idea. Well he felt like a total jerk for it and never came on to me again. I got a boyfriend not long after but always wished I could have this guy instead. Now my boyfriend and I are really serious, and my guy friend has a great girlfriend. But I still no deep down that I'd do anything to be with him. I love everything about him, he's the ideal man. I'm going to regret saying no to him for the rest of my life.
Slacker grad student
I'm a grad student, but I'm really only doing it because I couldn't get a job without a masters degree. I don't really like my project or care about anything at school. Everyone else in my lab are real keeners, it drives me crazy. Most days I don't even bother to go to school, I go out with my dog or play computer games. I'm scared of what I'll do when I finish, I think everyone probably thinks I'm a horrible student. It sucks because I know I'm capable of great things, I'm just so no motivated.