I feel I'm in Crisis
I've been married for seven years and I get disgusted when my husband touches me. He is a good person, I'm just not in love with him anymore. I want to leave, but I don't know if I can handle it financially and honestly I don't think he'll let me go. I have a crush on someone else, but I don't want to ruin my family. I don't even know how this other person feels about me. But I can't stop thinking about this person, and we are on completely opposite ends of the spectrum. I want to get the crush out of my head. I just want out of my marriage. I just want to focus on me and my kid. I just don't know how.
why does he do that
Everytime I go to my boyfriend's house, he wants me to leave at 12:30... but when i say ill get the bus at 1 he says no. I know its stupid, but it makes me feel so lame that he doesnt want me to stay longer. I love him so much and i know he loves me back. but why does he do that?
So. I feel like all my relationships are messed up. Here's the deal. I've been dating this guy for 3 months. We dated last year for half a year before I screwed things up and ended it. This time though, I really feel like I might love him, but it's just not working out the way I hoped.
The guy I'm with is an amazing guy though. He's just the sweetest. But I keep feeling like I'm screwing things up. I've been talking to a few other guys and planning to hang out" with them. I don't feel bad at the time
in high school my freshman year i was in love with this one girl but i never had the courage to approach her despite reoccurring classes with her..... now in my junior year she has a boyfriend and i feel awful to say the least
I hate myself
I hate myself so much for still loving my ex after all this time. I am using food to hurt myself. I've gained almost 100 lbs in 5 years. This keeps men from being attracted to me and allows me to wallow in self-loathing. I decided today that I really don't want to do this any more, and that maybe, just maybe, I can learn to like myself all over.
Love or studies?
I love my boyfriend, or so i think. I truly believe i do, even if it isn't love, its something strong that i feel. However, im just scared about the future. We'll both be going to university soon and he keeps on bringing me down when we mention it, as we both realize that i will be hard for us to stay together during this period. I promised him we'd stay together. However, now looking back, i dont think I can promise that... is it impossible to look into the future?
I started playing Eragon on xbox 360 today at like 7:00 am and waited for some people to come to my house. It was at like 5:30 pm when I finished the game and realized I had all of the achievements. I don't know why I played through so much of the game, I didn't even care about the achievements after like 10 minutes, but some strong outside force compelled me to sit through one lousy level and generic story cutscene after another. I felt violated and immediatly took a shower when it was over, but it didn't help in the long run because it's still on my gamercard.
Hit a Parked Car
I accidentally hit a parked car while I was trying to park today. I felt like a total idiot. I got out and checked the bumper of the other car and there was absolutely NO damage. However, I am absolutely terrified that someone may have seen me do it and called the cops. Now I am terrified that the cops will come and arrest me.
I am sorry I said that she was the worst clarinet player; I'm especially sorry I said it to YOU. As soon as I said it, I knew that you would just run right up to her as soon as you could to tell her what I said. She's nasty enough as it is, now she'll be even worse. What you DON'T know is that I heard she said that you were the worst player, and that she was better than you, and should have your spot. Some friend, huh?
I suppose we all need to grow up. This is more like middle school than college. I'm sorry I said it, she's probably a nice person when she's not so insecure. But I'm still mad that you went and told her.
I just need to get it out
Dear best friend:
You are SO bad at being supportive and encouraging. Or maybe I'm just SO good at hiding how much your opinion matters. I shut up because I know you are living such difficult times right now, so I agree to make it all about you. But in the meantime, your silence hurts me and makes me cry when we discuss me. I won't ever tell you for real, but I ache to get it out.
The only time I feel alive is when my heart is breaking.
I look for heartbreak, because it's the only time I can cry, or feel anything. I will do anything to be crushed by a guy so I can JUST. FEEL. Otherwise, I am so numb to the world. Nothing hurts, nothing scars. Nothing makes me care. I just want to feel.
I deserve better
I know that we are supposed to love each other. We've been together three and a half years. But on Wednesday I'm going out with another guy. I wish YOU would take me out and fufill me needs, But I'm starting to wonder if you ever will. You never show up on time anytime we meet up and you come over smelling gross because you haven't brushed your teeth or showered. Its sooo gross its to the point where I don't even wanna be with you. On top of that you always expect money for food, and if I don't buy it for you, you complain like its my fault. I try to tell you these things nicely and then you say mean things like see I told you we're not right for each other." Its not fair how you never have any money or even a phone where I can reach you. Its not fair how you never help me and my mom out. She works two jobs and goes to school and you can't even work one. I'm tired of paying for everything for you including your school which cost
me three thousand dollars (which you failed by the way). I
know you love me but this needs to stop. And until it does I'm gonna see what else is out there because I deserve better. "
I know she's not the one for me, but I still want her anyway.
Single, now what?
I broke up with my boyfriend because I felt like I had to date other people. Now I am once again depressed about my hair and body, and for some reason this guy that's in a relationship is flirting with me (I think) and I don't regret breaking up, but this is all so new to me and I don't feel like I have any respect
It was me
I have a love/hate relationship with one of my best friends. She is a sweet girl when she is not being nasty to people. She looks down to other people and is constantly saying hurtful things about people she dislikes. So one day, she was drunk at a house party and she wouldn't stop calling me and bugging me to come join her. I said no, she'd call five minutes later. My phone was ringing off the hook because she kept calling until I pick up. I was getting real pissed off so I picked up the phone, asked her for the address of the house. I hung up the phone, called 911 and reported her for underage drinking. She got an MIP charge as a result and had to pay a fine. Serves her right.
The boyfriend's mom
My boyfriend's mom is a sweet lady, except for her annoying habit of sending LONG emails (two pages or more) about updates in her life, what she did this weekend, etc. She sent the long emails to everyone on her address book. I finally decided enough is enough -- I am not going to take this anymore so I went online and signed her up on every e-newsletter and junk mail I can get my hands on. I know she is a very conservative woman so I made sure to subscribe her to sites she would find offensive. Lesson of the day:
You mess with fire, you get BURNED, lady!!
it's like someone told me
for as long as I can remember I have known i will die before I am 30. I just turned 20 years old a few days ago and on the day of my birthday i was drilling with my National Guard unit. That same day they told me I will be going to Iraq. Not that I want to die, but I think I will never see the united states of america again after I leave on deployment.
that said, i have started writing letters to everyone that is important to me in my life. maybe that is naive of me.
Love a different woman
I'm married, but I love someone from my high school days. We were good friends, but then got pissed off at each other and didn't talk for years. After we both got married, we got back in touch and we're good friends again, but I seriously regret the years we were apart. We lived in different cities in high school (about 4 hours apart), so we never had a romantic relationship, but I really do love her, and always have. I also love my wife though, so I can't endanger my marriage with a relationship, and I'm not even sure she feels the same way. *sigh* Sometimes life can be cruel.